Click here for Italian/original version: https://loscrittorevolante.com/2021/01/25/insoddisfazione/
It is the most typical feeling I have.
The awareness that I could, that I can do more.
If I had been, if I were put in a position to be able to do it.
Now however, enough with the poison and obsessions.
I have to get these things out of my head.
Negative thinking must never dominate again.
These are thoughts that fuel hatred, are things that fill me with emptiness.
There is no love. For others, for me.
I don’t want to close myself in just one way of life, to see things.
I never want to be still, at a fixed point.
I do not agree with those who think that there are fixed rules,
who does not believe that things change. I am, and I will continue.
I will prove it. I was also the only one who could do it.
Indeed, to want it. Because I could but I don’t want to… do otherwise.
I am learning to grow, to love myself.
And since I want to be the first to do it, to do it for me …
I know what is best for me best of all.
What I want. Who I want…
And the path to follow to get it.
It’s like I’ve thrown myself down,
allowing other people to kick me when I was down.
Now I got up…
The more time passes, the more I feel stronger. A
nd from the height of this pyramid,
I now ask: “Well, that’s all you are able to do?”
I am more confident in myself and my means.