To fuel the insecurities,
To increase the uncertainties,
To undermine my self-esteem,
to feed doubts,
to tell me that “I can’t do it”,
to want to be right,
to always blame me,
to break my balls about everything,
To break the balls so much,
about how I dress,
to break the balls so much on my body,
to make me feel like I don’t count for anything,
to make me feel that I’m ugly,
To tell me that I can’t do it with women,
that for me those are “too beautiful”,
so I should “reduce my claims”,
Because you make me feel belittled.
You say you do it for my sake,
but GODDAMIT, the concept of “good” escapes you..
YOU DON’T EVER FUCKING help.
I don’t know why you are so obsessed,
that the only way to “help”,
is to doubt.
Whether to devalue us,
to make us think that we have no value.
you should encourage,
you should help people believe in themselves,
if you are friends.
But are you really friends?
from MY fucking point of view,
do the opposite effect.
And it’s because of these things,
that I am like that.
Certain friendships, certain advice,
they are more toxic than the rest.
They do not conform to personalities
And to doubts.
Make it clear that the only way to make people understand things,
i’ts to be stern.
Nto helping at all.